Damien Lawler – known as ‘Damo’ to his family – wrote he was so terrified about being put on Jobseekers Allowance he was experiencing panic attacks
A man who felt like a “hindrance” was found dead holding a suicide note after his benefits were axed.
Damien Lawler, known as ‘Damo’ to his family, killed himself in his flat after struggling to find work.
The 34-year-old, from Hull, was found by his mum with a suicide note in his hand, Hull Live reports.
He wrote he could not “carry on anymore” after having no success with numerous job applications.
He said his Employment and Support Allowance was due to be cancelled and he was so terrified about being put on Jobseekers Allowance he was experiencing “stupid” panic attacks.
Mr Lawler wrote: “I’m sorry for all the pain and heartache I’m leaving behind. I love you with all my heart but I can’t carry on anymore.”
His mum, Karen Lawler, described her son as someone “with a heart of gold
She said: “He never had much money but he would always give his last penny or his last cigarette to a homeless person on the street. He always had a care for the homeless.
“He had a wicked sense of humour and a heart of gold. He would do anything for anybody.”
Ms Lawler found her son after letting herself into his home on July 19, 2018.
She said he had been suffering depression for a number of years.
“Damo was just so tired and exhausted with it all,” she said.
“There was not enough support for him.
“There’s just nothing there. He’s not the only one. The recent cases with males in Hull is going sky high because they can’t cope anymore.”
An inquest on Tuesday heard Ms Lawler took her son to his GP in November 2013 after he deliberately self-harmed, using a Stanley knife to cut off his toe nails.
He was prescribed with anti-depressants but his mental health took a turn for the worse in 2017.
When visiting his GP in January 2018, he revealed he had thoughts of self-harm and suicide.
Mr Lawler was advised to return to the surgery for further consultation but he did not follow through with the appointments.
“There needs to be something there if they do not turn up for any appointments,” said Ms Lawler.
“They cannot just discharge someone. They need to try and find out why they have not come to the appointment. Maybe contacting a next of kin or something.
“I don’t know what the answer is and I don’t suppose there is an easy answer but something needs to be changed. Something has got to change in Hull, it really has.”
Coroner James Hargan returned a conclusion of suicide.
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